Anushthi

Do you remember the date?  The hour sun dipped low in the mid-afternoon sky, When you left me — not in steps,  But in silence,  Like a ghost who never meant to say goodbye.  You called — Not to explain,  Not to hold my shaking voice,  But to leave…  And left me drowning  In the ocean of a reason you never gave.  I was crying —  You were listening —  And that was all.  No comfort.  No closure.  Just the echo of a breath that once meant home.  You shattered me like light through stained glass, Beautiful once,  now broken in colorless pain.  Since then, I have forgotten who I was —  a name without meaning,  A soul without skin.  I still search for fault in whispers,  Trace it in the mirror,  But it vanishes with every tear.  I write this not to bring you back —  You’re long gone in ways I can't unfeel —  But to remind you:  Your leaving never left.  It live...

कभी कभी ना बहुत याद आते हो तुम कसम से सोचती हूं अगर हम साथ होते तो कैसा होता ? हाँ छोटी छोटी बातों पर झगड़ते, बहस करते, एक दूसरे को मारने दौड़ते पर मुझे यकीन है अपनी टूटी फूटी आवाज में गाने गा के तुम मुझे मना लेते जिंदगी रोज मेरे सामने एक नया सवेरा लाती है और उस सवेरे के साथ ही कभी कभी तुम्हारी याद भी आ ही जाती है और सबसे ज्यादा याद तब आती है जब मैं भीड़ में होती हूं क्योंकि तुम्हारे ना होने का अहसास लोगो के होने से कई गुना ज्यादा महसूस होता है तो ज्यादा कुछ नही बस कभी कभी बहुत याद आते हो तुम!

Mera intejaar ab mat karo, mai laut ke nahi aa paunga Jabardasti kab tak roke rakhogi mujhe, jane bhi do ab mujhe Mat mango mujhe aapni in duaon me, vo puri na hue tho takleef tumhe hi hogi Kitne aur aanso mere liye bahaogi, ye jaan ke bhi mujhe farq nahi padta tumhare rone se Ghar ki badi ho tum aapne mera jana bhi sehan kar logi tum Samjo ab tumhare hone ya na hone se mujhe fark nahi padta Ek arsa gujara hai tumahre saath Aasan tumhare liye nahi hai, tho muskil mere liye bhi na karo isko Janta hoon pehli mohabbat ban chuka hoon tumhari Par meri pehli mohabbat koi aur hai, aur vo jagah tum nahi le sakti Janta hoon kuch sapne saja liye hai tumne mere saath Tum bhi samjo un sapno ke liye tumne galat insaan chun liya hai Mai kabhi tumhara nahi ho sakta Mai tumhare hisse ka hoon hi nahi Jinki khawish tum mujhse kar baithi hoon vo nahi ho sakti puri Kab tak yuhi zidd karti rahogii Mai laut ke nahi aa paungaa Koi wapas laut aaya hai Tum uski jagah nahi le sakti par vo tumhari jagah acche le...

Janti hu tum naraj ho mujhse  Tumhe tumhi se mana lu kya?  Kuch tut gaya hai hum dono ke andar  Inn tukdon ko samet kar ek bana du kya?  Haan hai dhage uljhe huye ab bhi  Todh du inhe ya suljha lu kya?  Mana galti na tumhari thi na meri  Mai sari galti kismat ki bata du kya?  Tumhe rokna chahti hu, rok lu kya?  Tum na chodhne ka vada kar paoge kya?  Log kehte hai tu mujh jaise hi hai  Dur ja kar mujhe mujhse hi alag kar doge kya?  Yeh raste alag jarur hai humare  Par kuch der sath mere chaloge kya?  Haan shayad kuch tut gya hai rishte mein hamare  Tum phir se mere sath inn dhago ko siloge kya?  Mai chahti hu tum laut kar aa Jao mere paas  Itni si khwaish puri karegi kya?  Haan kisse bahut se hai jo tujhe sunane hai  Tum baithe ke unhe sunoge kya?  Yaadein bahot hai bas jeene ke liye  Tum nayi yaadein mere sath banaoge kya?  Is baar kabhi na jaane ka wada kar laut aaoge kya? ...

I put my heart in a box  Where it couldn't breathe,  Choking in my own air  And bleeding out sin,  Hanging by a narrow thread  In between life and death,  You ripped it right out of my chest  Kissed it gently and put it back  And somehow it dances  to every cadence of your breathing,  The way you smile slyly  Even after the world let you down a million times  Makes this frozen pain lose its crisp  And slowly fade away,  The silver light on your face  Is the only color I now have left,  Making you the moon to my night sky. ~Anushthi

Together we will create a home with no loud anger, no explosive rage, no slamming doors or breaking glass, no holes punched into the walls so hard that the foundation rocks and cracks.  Our home will be gentle, it will be warm. I will keep you safe and you will keep me still.  No fear, no hurt, no worry. We come from broken and twisted places but together we will build something whole and safe. We will curl around each other like a pair of quotation marks at night, warm and comforted.  In the mornings, you'll sing in the shower again. We will heal, and we will raise a family that doesn't need to heal. ~Anushthi